Monday, April 6, 2015

Five Minutes Underwater

I used to give my parents a lot of grief about how there are 8 million baby pictures of Leanne and about a half a dozen of me...and she's in all of them.
Can we just take a minute a marvel at that burnt orange, crushed velvet sofa?  Folks, there are times when furniture crosses the realm of pure function and it becomes art.  You're witnessing it, my friends.  It really should be preserved in a museum somewhere...
 
I was determined not to let that happen with my kids.  Hence, I started a separate blog devoted entirely to Merryn.  I wanted to fill it with all of her vital stats - you know - just in case she someday asks me what her head circumference was at her 9 month check-up (Above average.  WAY above average.  I have the C-Section scar to prove it.  You can thank your dad for that, Kiddo).  I was going to impart all this valuable wisdom upon her; a toolbox to help her navigate her teenage years that spans beyond Noxzema and whatever dreadful teen soap the CW is airing in the future. (Do they even make Noxzema anymore??  I'm totally dating myself.)
 
Merryn's blog was last updated on November 15, 2013!!!
 
And Lydia?  LOL!  Let's not even talk about the little circle of the world wide web devoted entirely to her.  Because it doesn't exist.  Heck, CCE barely exists.  You probably had to wipe a layer of dust off your screen after clicking on our URL so the text would be legible.
 
So, I apologize Mom and Dad.  I get it.  I totally get it.  It doesn't mean you love me any less.  You just got busy. 
The other day Travis came home from work and I told him that I had planned a trip to Costco for the family because we were in desperate need of a diapers and Pediasure and we could just feed the kids at the snack bar and spare the dinner mess.  I just needed one minute to upload some pictures off my camera and hang some clean laundry in the girls' closet. 
 
Within 5 minutes he was asking me "Are you ready?  How much longer?  We need to get going..."
 
"Can't you see that this place is a disaster and I still need to load the dishwasher, feed the baby, sort the mail, and unpack the 12M clothes before we can go?!"
 
Travis said "By the time you do all that, it will be the kids' bedtime.  Can't you just do that stuff when we get home?"
 
 "You know what?" I snapped, "Forget it!  You just go to Costco by yourself!  The list is on the counter!"
 
He looked a little startled and he lowered his voice and hesitantly asked "Are you sure you don't want to go?"
 
"Of course I want to go!" I bellowed, "All day, every day, I'm trapped in this tiny condo with an endless supply of domestic drudgery to tend to and all I want is to get out of the house even if it is just a trip to Costco to buy some stupid diapers!"
 
"So you DO want to go?"
 
"Didn't you hear what I just said?!  I can't possibly go!"
 
At this point, Travis sighed, hung his head and walked out of the room in defeat.  The sleep deprivation/PMS/stress bomb is one not even Travis can dismantle.

 

That's why when I friend sent me a link to an article (click HERE) about motherhood by Jen Hatmaker, it totally hit home with me.  I'll admit I didn't know who Jen Hatmaker was but apparently she's kind of a big deal.  I understand her popularity may have something to do with Facebook.  I wouldn't know.  I don't have a Facebook page.  I don't have time for Facebook.  I don't have time for TV.  Basically, I live under a rock.  I'm oblivious to a lot of current news, pop culture trends, and the like.  Why?  Well, Jen Hatmaker describes it well when she says:
 
The baby years are short, kind of like five minutes…underwater.
 
Yes!  That describes my life beautifully!  So much about this article resonates with me: Former perspicacious business professional with a college degree turned stay-at-home mom with three kids in four years and a compromised acuity?  Yep!  That's ME!

 

 
And every day feels kind of like Groundhog Day; prepare meals, change diapers, drive to preschool, load the dishwasher, unload the dishwasher, kiss boo boo's, pick up toys, do laundry and more of the same.

 

And even though my life is quite monotonous, it's not boring.  I don't even remember what it feels like to be bored!  I've got an endless supply of things to do.  And the majority of them are not remotely fun.

Travis and I reminisce "Remember before we had kids and we could do whatever we wanted?"  "Remember when the only person whose food you had to cut was your own?" "Remember when you slept past 7:00am?" "Remember when the house was clean?  Always?"  Yeah, those were the days...
 
 
But what Ms. Hatmaker so poignantly points out in the article is that my monotonous days of motherhood are filled with moments that make life worth living.  Sure, Lydia is the clingiest baby who won't even let me go to the bathroom without clutching my leg...but at night when she buries her sleepy little head in my neck and I inhale that beautiful baby scent, I am so grateful to have her in my arms.  And that smile?  I melt!
  Sure, Merryn is a challenging, argumentative, strong-willed, and dramatic "threenager," but she tells me I'm her best friend (unless I won't let her have the iPad) and she is an invaluable helper when it comes to her sisters.  Every day that child says something that makes me laugh and she never ceases to amaze me with her intelligence and kindness. 
 
Then there's Josie - or "Sassafras" as her para calls her.  Oh that child can be stubborn and defiant and all of the physical help she requires makes my back feel twice its age.  But she is full of affection; she lives to give hugs.  And after each embrace she sweetly says "Thank you for the love."  Literally.  She says that.  To me.  I'm her mom!  She doesn't need to thank me for loving her; it's the most natural inclination in the world.  But she does.

 
Then Ms. Hatmaker goes on to talk about how these little sanity-stealing, free time-eroding, house-destroying munchkins grow up.  Quickly.
 
...and thank God that you got to parent this kid, that he was yours, that he walked into your arms at one and will walk out of them at eighteen, but my gosh…what a gift.
 
I would strongly encourage you to read this article.  But don't do it if you have someplace to go and you don't want to cry off your makeup.  Because it will yank on your heartstrings.  Don't say I didn't warn you.  And on the hardest of days, it will remind you that you're not alone and it's totally, definitely, undeniably, completely, 100% worth it.
 

* This post is dedicated to all of our blog and Instagram followers who have left comments and emailed me letting me know how you appreciate us sharing our story.  We're humbled by your support.  Thanks for following along on our journey. 

5 comments:

  1. Yes, Yes, Yes and definitely Groundhog Day!

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  2. Oh man. I have three littles, one with special needs and zero self care skills. Last night I told my husband, after listening to him talk all about his job, "My life is boring."
    "No, that's not right, my life isn't boring, I am never bored. It's just boring to talk about."

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  3. My first 2 are 12 months apart. I did great at making sure their baby books were filled out equally as much. And both have pictures galore! Baby #3 got filled out to like her 1st bday. Baby #4??? Well, I think I put his one-month stats in his book! LOL Life definitely DOES get busy. And I homeschool all 4 of mine like some crazed idiot. Ha I also didn't know who Jen Hatmaker was until a friend had me read an article. Loved it. Hilarious. Resonating. Forgot about her. :) I will def check out that article at some other time... when I'm not hollering for 4 kids in a motel room to be quiet and go to sleep. Oh my word. One just threw a spit wad or something at the back the of my head!!!! Yeah, definitely reading the sappy stuff later. LOL

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  4. I needed that - thank you!!

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  5. My babies are well and truly grown, but when I look back, those years were the best years of my life - even though I didn't think at times, that I would survive them! You have a beautiful family, and it's plain to see that you were made for this!

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