The other night I received an email from my blogosphere buddy, Patti, from A Perfect Lily, asking me to do a guest blog post about the most agonizing thing I've ever lived through - nearly losing Josie. The death of a child is the most excruciating pain one can feel and in August 2010, we were told to prepare ourselves for this experience.
My initial reaction was to decline. I do my best to avoid those terrible memories. I can't even look at photos of Josie from those days. I don't think about it, I don't read about it, and I don't talk about it.
However, Patti's email explained that the reason she wanted me to share our story was to offer encouragement to another family whose daughter, Emma, has been given a bleak prognosis from doctors. Patti was an avid blog follower (and more importantly, a devoted prayer warrior) during that time and she thought our experience could offer hope to Emma's family and to other families as well.
So, I reluctantly agreed and I let the words pour out stream of consciousness style. And as much as I dreaded confronting those memories, the process was extremely cathartic for me. It helped remind me of the overwhelming amount of love, support, hope, and faith that surrounded us during that time.
And even though we stood at the door step of our own personal hell, we ultimately became the recipient of one of God's miracles and for that, we are eternally grateful.
I smiled when I found a passage I wrote when I informed blog readers just how dismal Josie's prognosis had become:
We remain hopeful as we wait. We pray that each day we are greeted with the subtle improvement Josie demonstrated today. I anxiously await the day I can blog to tell you that she is off the ventilator...and that she's out of the PICU...and that she gets to go home...and comes back to punch Dr. Doom & Gloom in the face (Travis' idea, not mine). With all the love, support, and prayers that surround our sweet baby, we know she will recover. We've got BIG plans for this kiddo!
Please take a moment to join us in prayer for Baby Emma and her family.
To read my contribution to Patti's "Grief, Hope, and Miracles" series,